I'm throwing in the towel at 28K words and change. Yeah, I know, there are four days left. 22K isn't an insurmountable goal in that timeframe, especially since I've been possessed of a white heat on all of my other projects over the past few days. Throwing away four days worth of energy at a book that is fundamentally, fatally flawed seems like a waste of time. (I know. You don't edit during NaNoWriMo, every writer thinks they're shoveling shit from a sitting position at least once, but by now I have a certain sense for when I'm being crazy and just need to push through, and when something is going off the skids. Eat went off the skids.) In spite of not finishing, though, it felt good to get back in the groove after writing virtually nothing for the better part of five months. It felt incredibly good to realize that my mental health is back on track to that degree.
And even if I didn't finish NaNoWriMo, buckling down and working on something again helped to unlock my other creative processes, to wit: finally figuring out where Bulletproof, Bonnie's book, fell apart and how I need to fix it. Involving space zombies, because let's face it: there is nothing I can come up with crazier than what various superhero canons have already done over the years. The trick is to be outrageous with conviction. I also had this epiphany as to how to fix Bonnie's story during one of my customary three a.m. flails. It's been awhile, I had missed them. :)